Urged by the need to have a journal in which I actually write, I've created a new one. Everyone says journaling can help you deal with emotions and I guess we'll have to see. I'm starting on a new course of self-improvement, or at least self-care- I don't know if I want to get better, or at least I don't know if I can. I'm just trying to keep my head above water.
In the interests of that, I went to get medication again. Antidepressants, what fun! My psychiatrist was a bit patronizing about it, telling me that if I just waited and kept taking them I'd feel better. I've been on and off them about half a dozen times now- they do help, they actually do. I just stop taking them after a while. But I think framing it not as trying to get better but just taking care of myself might help.
We'll see, I guess. After I get to a stable dose on the antidepressants, I'm going to start ADHD medication, a different one than last time. Hopefully that will help me get some of my shit in order, because otherwise I don't have much of a hope of surviving the school year.
My classes this year are:
Beginners' Norwegian I: Monday/Wednesday/Friday 10-10:50, Tuesday/Thursday 9:30-10:50
Reading Histories: Making Books: Tuesday/Thursday 11-12:20
Early 20th Century Literature and Culture: Drama: Monday/Wednesday/Friday 12-12:50
Introduction to Popular Music: Monday/Wednesday/Friday 2-2:50
Mysticism and Negative Theology: Tuesday/Thursday 2-4:50
It's a pretty heavy schedule, but I'm looking forward to it. I ran into some problems planning out because Past Me makes questionable life choices about which English classes to take... not that I regret taking Old English, Chaucer, and general Medieval Texts, but apparently it's a lot smarter to just take one.
Also it might be better to avoid skipping all the 200-level courses in favour of the 300-level courses because they actually make you take those. Weird.
Anyways, it's a bit later and I did something fun today: I watched Legend of Korra! The whoooole thing. My brother's girlfriend is in California and he likes to socialize, so I went over and watched it with him. It was a good time- I have heard less-than-great things about it from The Internet, but I really liked it. I think the fast pacing worked well with watching it in quick succession.
Bolin is a perfect human being, and Lin Bei Fong is my goddess.