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Chloe ([personal profile] sowildlywell) wrote2012-07-22 01:47 pm

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So I got dumped on Friday, although I've been saying that I was broken up with, because it lacks some of the harshness that 'dumped' seems to convey- it's just that 'broken up with' sounds really awkward.

I'm not really sure how I feel about it. I'm sad, yeah- I'm not heart-broken, because I wasn't madly in love with her. I liked her a lot and I wanted to see where things could go. The break-up was just a matter of bad timing and circumstances: she has more shit in her life than she needs, and handling a girlfriend was just too much for her.

Part of me is telling me that it's my fault, that I should have supported her better and helped her more, but I'm ignoring that part. She didn't say anything about that, so it's obviously not true, right? It's just my jerkbrain being a jerk. If I keep saying that enough I'll believe it.

I believe there's, like, supposed to be a week where I eat nothing but ice cream and chocolate, watch romantic movies, and listen to Adele. I did eat an entire bag of potato chips on Friday night (and listen to Adele), but other than that, I think I'm handling it okay. I am not happy, I'm not. But I'm managing.